Life is a constant swinging pendulum of ups and downs. There was so much success over the weekend with the Easter Resurrection, record weight loss, accomplishing the 40 hour Fast, and even the joy of knowing true success from putting forth 100% effort. Then it all ended. I ate what I wanted, drank what I wanted, and even had a relaxing day with minimal effort. This morning I dug deeper in the closet to find an old pair of slacks that I haven’t worn in years. They are now the best fitting pair of pants I own. I had accomplished everything I set out to accomplish. With God all things are possible.
There is nothing more devastating to positive progression than to reach final success. The most unproductive time in life is right between successful completion of one thing and the beginning of working on a new thing. It is right after that feeling of accomplishment that we are left feeling empty and unchallenged. We relax only to find that we have lost our purpose and need to quickly find a new one.
Work was not so great today. Some of the things that I recently thought were coming together seemed to fall apart. One by one, another thing went wrong. Then tonight I decided to go running the 5K. Maybe a good run will bring me back up. I had to stop a few more times than usual tonight: twice for the dog with the nice teeth, once for the old Ford truck that burned way too much gas, and twice coming up those steep hills. The salt in all that good food yesterday is now burning my eyes like pepper spray. I did the whole 5K in 31:38. It felt like anything but success.
There is a 5K race this Saturday for Relay for Life. In two weeks I will be hiking in the AT with some great guys. In 6 weeks I will be revisiting high school friends for my 20 year reunion. These are all good reasons to keep motivated. However, my biggest reason to stay motivated didn’t hit me until I was at the 4K mark running tonight; I had not prayed all day. I guess that level of confidence made me a little arrogant. Lent was a period of cleansing to get me closer in my relationship with God. God does not want us to simply thank Him for the nice journey. He wants a relationship with us.
In order for me to keep my life from a constant pendulum of highs and lows, I need to recognize the patterns and direction changes. It is time to refocus and stay motivated. Writing always helps. Maybe I should write about this . . . maybe I will post it on my website since it’s not being used anymore . . .
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